Jan. 3rd, 2006 @ 01:50 am
IF UR NOT LIVIN ON THE EDGE YOU'RE TAKIN UP SPACE!
Okay, this is after Dallas:
Something very unusual happened an hour ago when I was buying a birthday gift for someone at Target. I walked out of the store and got into my car when I heard a tap-tap on my window. It was a gentlemen in his late 20's or so with a big heart-shaped Russell Stover's chocolate thing. He was like, 'I watched you walk out of the store and had to give this to you. are so beautiful.' AWWWWW.... It was sweet but flattering, but y'know....
So here I am stuffing my face with chocolates. :P mmmmmm yum.
Not too many, tho, I don't want to kill my diet. I've already lost 8 solid pounds! My collarbone is beginning to show, and I have stomach dimples on my sides with a hint of definition in the middle. I'm happy about that!!!! :) Even my thighs are now starting to slim up a little - that's the hardest area to work on. Luv that stress diet!!
Current Music: VAST - Lady of Dreams & Touched
*Days Go By - Dirty Vegas
*Porcelin - Moby
*White Flag - Dido
*Somebody's Baby - Elliott Smith
*Drive - The Cars
*Lying Eyes - The Eagles
*Let Her Cry - Hootie & The Blowfish
*Missing - Everything But The Girl
*Losing A Whole Year - Third Eye Blind
*Always SOmething There To Remind ME -Naked Eyes
*Bed's Too Big Without You - The Police
*Better Man - Pearl Jam
*Wonderwall - Oasis
Current Music: TV
Okay, I went off the deep-end there. Slowly but surely, I'm getting better. Yes, it's been a week or so since the last update and lots has happened, but shit, I'd be here for hours and I have better things to do.
Another thing that sucks about losing the love of your life besides being down for watching Fried Green Tomatoes with your mom and crying, is that your really can't talk to any of your ex-boyfriend's friends. I kinda miss a few of them. (I'll spare them their privacy)
K, this one chick - I liked her because she wasn't perfect, y'know? I mean she's like pixie cute, but she never faked anything about herself. I admire that because it's the only way I've known to survive.
I have a healthy balence of working and going out, but not enough time as I would like to study. I'll have some time this week. (so remember this when your reading this, you lazy bitch, you - hit the books)
The best news: Amy is playing Gypsy Tea Room February 18th @ 7:00. So everybody come! -if you need a ride, post a comment. I have a copy of her CD, but I want to rip it on my 'puter, but I don't know how to make them downloadable. If someone other than my peeps ramndomly reads this, please give me the word up on how to. :) It's sooo worth it!
gtg to a superbowl parlay..........until then, luv u!
Current Music: got the TV going
Yeah yeah, big loser me didn't go to Dallas after all. I have to pay my insurance, plus there are other reasons. It sounded good at the time, but it just isn't practical. Blah da da.......I'm curling up in bed tonight to watch TV. Maybe I'll go see a movie by myself, nah, I'd rather save my money. Goodnight.
Current Music: Cranberries - Linger
|» How Are We Able to Rise Up If All We Do Is Get Down?|
I've lost 6 (noticable) pounds in 10 days. It's not that I'm really fat, but I have some holiday pounds I can live without. I look & feel better in the spring/summer when I'm trim. I'm off to a good start. Hooo-ray. It's probably from all the stress I'm living in. I need some Sam Roberts right about now. Yes, that would be good......|
Deep Thoughts by Jack Handy:
*Why did I buy all new panty & push-up bra sets last week?
*I'm perfectly fine living with my 8 cats, thank youuuu.
*Does everybody think like this?
*It's all my fault.
This really sucks, but at times, I feel like a guy. I feel as if I have no feeling. Maybe it's my defensive mechanisim - so I don't feel as much pain. If I save my energy, I won't feel & remember it as much. It seems to be a very effective solution for now.....
I need to pay an outrageous insurance bill of $175.00 tomorrow, and then I'm taking my ass to Dallas. Amy (my evil half, but best friend since 14) is moving back to 'ol T-town so I'm going up there to check out her house & let go a little. It's probably a stupid idea, and I can't really afford it, but what the hell, why not? I've never seen her condo in the 4 months she's been down there so, now's the time to go.
|» ...And All The Coloured Girls Say, "Doo.. da doo, da doo, do do do, doop dooooo." - Lou Reid|
(Slightly Updated 8:26 CST)|
I'm not going to elaborate on this because it would just bring up bad feelings, but after coming home from work yesterday, I sit my tired ass in my chair getting ready for a good night -- when ..................ohhh nooo....I find out the facking cable is cut off!!...................fack!!! (I paid the bill today) So I was like, 'screw this' so I visited with Amanda for a little bit and then realized I had nothing to do when I got home but crash - immediately (which I couldn't do) so I went to BAM and bought these really cool picture books that have rare shots from the 40's, 50's 60's & 70's. I also got some magazine with 'ol Elliott on the cover.
Work is cool. I heart my jobie :) I'm filling in for this mean old lady who broke her ankle. The people are cool, but I like the Women's store better. It's just homey.
Well, other than that everything's been quite shitty. I am confused and mad at myself, but I'm handling everything really well on the outside. I'm on the computer at the college, so I can't submit anything too risque. So I think I'll end it here in that case. :) +peace
Oh, P.S.: I lost 4 pounds :) !!!!!! YAYAYAYAYAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
|» Happiness is a Warm Sausage McGriddle|
I work. I mope. I sleep. I fight the days. This is not how I usually behave. I need to clean my room.|
Force feed my pride, guilt & shame into the stomach of guilty party and watch the mess that comes from our insides.
Now In English: I worked all day, like a dumbass I thought I had to be there at 9:50, I woke up early, got ready and came to work only to find out I was scheduled @ 10:30a.m. GRRR. It was cool. except fuckin Amanda called in so I had to stay until 9, but I left at 8:45, I said fuhque that! Yup. SO after I get off work, my whole day begins and the rest of the world is ending theirs, except one place I go to drink coffee & read indie rags. While I was there I got into this debate with some Republicans that I thought were pretty cool, well, the one guy and chick were cool, so I just argued (very nicely) with that other dude until his friends were ready to go. It was weird how all that started cuz I heard someboday make some techno noises with their mouth, and I thought it was funny cuz they were really makin fun of it, so I was like, 'no, it's like this....' and I proceeded to make my techno noise, which I had perfected back in my raver dayz, and they were like, hahaha 'aren't you from Canada?' (one of the doods knew who I was from school)and I was like, 'Hell motherfuckin ya.' So then we got in a debate about George Bush. Fun fun.
.........first day of classes start, I gotta get to bed....
|» Every New Beginning's Comes From Someother's Beginning's End - Semisonic|
Okay, I never did update my last two entries, but I just have not been in the mood to type away about my life and pretend someone's atually listening. I guess I'll go ahead and skim over the big things that have happened. Knowing myself pretty well, I know I always want to know what happened. Isn't that everybody?|
Amy's birthday over the weekend was cool.
Cliff is my boy-genius, heart-theif.
School is starting back soon, and I'm ready.
Me & mom are doing good quite well.
I spent way too much money.
Im trying to loose 12 pounds(of fat) off my body.
Lately it's been good.
Cliff has been practicing with Zach, Logan, Josh and Keener's little bro, sounds really hella fuggin good. It's sort of loungy, mix with skanky hard rock.
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The streets of Texarkana are dark and barren at night. A cold mystery broods in this town. Something that brings back strong nostalgia with a history of a burried past. ....... I'm going out, shall return L8R|